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Perception is Deception,
You observe the stars, your thumb, your thoughts, your first memory….
In one swift movement of your awareness, you seem to traverse infinite space. And time. And scale.
How is that possible?
We see the world as multitudes, as complexity, as “other”.
At the same time, we intuit everything to be one whole,
because our awareness is the medium that connects everything we experience.
It is all oneness,
wholeness shining with your awareness.
Unbroken awareness that in every millisecond tries to become conscious of itself, embrace itself,
and thereby produce an appearance of infinite changes, infinite lines of separation.
We are that power which constantly unites and splits the observed,
by the very act of observation.
How?
To answer the question, we have to find out what we are.
But we seem to have forgotten who we are.
What is a Seeker? What is a Guru?
An absolute field of unwavering stillness is said to permeate and contain everything. This field is absolute consciousness. It is Oneness. Knowing this infinite background field is said to be the highest purpose of life. This purpose, this wish, has driven the universe into existence.
In this infinite field of consciousness, a succession of more and more complex patterns appears. They all seek knowledge. They all push evolution. At one point the human body- mind entity appears as a pattern vibrating in consciousness. The specific human pattern is a result of all the preceding patterns, whose work has preprogramed the human being for the possibility of self-awareness and liberation. The consciousness alive in the human pattern can return to Oneness by knowing itself as the stainless field of absolute consciousness, in which all vibrations are perceived by themselves.
The Beautiful Dreamers
Eternal consciousness rested forever in perfect unmoving bliss.
Then, for no reason, the unmoving exploded into a playful dance [...]
The Tiger, the Baba, The Guru. Interview for A Curious Yogi
“The whole thing is for you to know you are outside of the mandala looking in. You are not caught. You’re not struggling your way out of the mandala, you are transcending the idea that you are even caught in the first place.”
The Doorway of Contradictions
The impact of a self-contradictory statement can either be meaningless or mind-blowing.
Never both.
Unless it is both.
A poetic self-contradiction can open your eyes in wonderment and wordless insight. You might even laugh. When the limits of square logic are challenged, we find it delightful. Thrilling. Hence, the love of a good joke or poem. It does not make sense, yet it does. Meaningful things that make no sense to our reason gifted mind, resonate within a hidden place, quickening our heartbeat, stopping us in our tracks and bringing laughter to bobble up or tears of relief to our eyes.
Someone said: “When you hear a self-contradictory statement, agree with it.”
Trust is the lubricant. Doubt is the brake.
We know this road, we have walked it forever, but we have lost our trust—and by that, our wisdom. We have forgotten who we are. We think we must let go of the hand of grace and take control ourselves. We forget that helping hand. We think we become the lonely spot of the ego. We live in solitude. We live in pain. We know deep down that our source is peace and oneness. This unbearable contrast drives us to despair. We begin to look for a fix for this pain. Just a short relief. We find something that gives a temporary joy. A temporary fix.